When God Humbles You

Being crushed by God is not fun but it does humble you.  I was doing my evangelist thing, you know going to the streets going to small town festivals colleges I enjoyed then I started to fall away and started to get sick and the next thing I knew I was in UVM a level one trauma hospital I didn't really realize I was there at first I had a strain of pneumonia I was very sick I almost died twice lots of hallucinations when I came out of it I couldn't walk.  lots of therapy for that. I won't get into all the details about my walking problems today but I was in that hospital for 111 days and acted giddy and glad to be alive but upset with God I sinned I flirted with some nurses I'm sad to say. I couldn't understand why God took me out of a ministry of evangelism like that I was upset Why think then I thought God can do whatever He wants He's God!  

I went through rehab and ended up in a hospital bed in my apartment for 4.5 years until the present I will soon, finally, get my electric wheelchair so I can get out I haven't been upset with God for years I accepted His humbling hand on me I learned the gospel well in these years as well as learning how to write my own Gospel tracts. Im looking forward to when the Lord deems me ready to go out again.  Another thing I learned it isn't about me and what I can do it's about submitting to God and remembering His glory, not mine.  It's about bringing people to Christ not methods.